This has been an incredibly special time for me. Every time I'v bowed with the Aspen Santa Fe Ballet, everything goes in mute... sound is muffled... and the noise blends in with my anxious heart beats - taking it all in at that very moment. I am truly so grateful and must admit that there is some beauty and "luck" in timing and "coincidence" in my personal path. Not to say it's all been luck, yet more so I am so grateful that the amount of time I've spent working and sweating hard, hoping for the best and preparing for all of life's worst has finally provided me this opportunity to share my thoughts and ideas for our public and our community. It's a blessing indeed. To be seen in that way.
The irony of the artistic path is that the course of your journey can drastically change in a drop of a dime, and the challenge we hold as artists given a large responsibility is whether or not we accept and choose to take that path, not knowing what our capabilities can take us, but trusting that we have something special enough worth being seen, even if it is just for a split moment. I've valiantly attempted to dive into each opportunity- with a naiveté, hopeful, fast, and sharp, with hopes to be received well enough to push further and beyond. Whether this be a 15-minute moment of glory, or a start of a lifelong career, all we can really do is focus on what we can genuinely provide next. Fame isn't something we should seek, it defies all our purpose of being artists. In a way we feel a need to vanish from this in order for our artistic imprint to be longed for and sought out for. I dont know. It's something that takes time and experience and I'm still in the midst of configuring out where when I can fit in with this mold. but regardless, Thankfulness and acknowledgement of where we come from is important. Thank you for always supporting and sharing your love. There will be more to come and I hope this ending curtain call is only a beginning to a wonderful artistic journey. Until Then.... <3 N