4 and half years ago, I showcased a self-choreographed solo (" 5'4" Effervescent Disco") as a 2010 graduate of the Juilliard school of dance. It was for the Graduation concert. Year after year of training and obedience, I strived and aimed to liberate my body/mind from outside sources & instructions - avoiding the constant tendency to match a fixed template. The dancers has always been required to fulfill this form or we felt that we were WRONG.
Little did I know during that time of insecurity and naïveté, that a 3-minute solo would spark & inspire the growth of a profoundly personal 15-minute ballet. in fact, this ballet is happening and premiering now LIVE as I speak. The young dancers of Tulsa Ballet II have brought this concept to a reality and it is EXACTLY how I had dreamt about it. What used to be an insecure yet "effervescent disco" has now morphed to an importance and focus that defines the/MY "Fourth Wall" on many different broad levels: In measurement, in boundaries, in theatrical identity, in relation to performer and audience member and via versa, to presence, to a reminder of humanity, to merely a filter that wipes clean all my prior misconceptions of who I must be or required to be on stage.
I am no scandalous TV entertainer, nor a circus animal act that is taken out of its cage for your little sisters birthday bash, or a family reunion voluntary show-and-tell intermission ambience. NO, we are artists that are very much human beings who relentlessly expose a broad idea beyond physicality and the commercialized form of dancing. It's much more personal than that.
I am blessed to see the fruition of this idea, that stemmed 4 and a half years ago, become an active and well-received ballet for Tulsa Ballet's TBII: 'On Your Radar' performances. I hope to expand this idea further in the near or far future as I know there is more to discover.
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